Back in the Saddle

It had finally happened. The commitment-phobic, party-hard, good times girl found a great guy and fell for him. However, as a lot of you already know, I am single once again, and this weekend I am getting back in the saddle both figuratively and literally.

The fiercely independent part of me wishes I could say that I haven’t had any contact with my ex and I’ve been on so many dates that I can’t keep their names straight. But the past few weeks since we broke up have been tough. I have always had a profound sense of pride, so is difficult to admit just how heartbroken and lost I felt after we said our goodbyes.

I’ve done all those things girls do when relationships end including having my fair share of ice cream, crying to my friends on the phone and going through more bottles of wine than is even typical for me. I also cut 7 inches off my long hair and bought a few cute new dresses just to bring myself a little bit of change and to get a little control back in my life.

And as hard as it has been to let go, it’s also strangely freeing. Here I am once again a single lady in this big city, and it feels good.

A big step in the right direction is my good friend and soon to be new roommate, Mary Logan. She and I have known each other since we went to pre-school together at Northside Methodist, and I couldn’t be more thrilled to be moving in with her in a few weeks.

She has been away from NYC for most of the summer and is returning today. In celebration, our closest NYC crew is getting together for a Western themed outing including dinner at Ted’s Montana Grill and bucking bull rides at Johnny Utah’s.

After an especially emotional past few days as I’ve tried to let go, I made the decision to make tonight my true return to Manhattan style single life. Hopefully my bull riding skills and my finest cowgirl attire will be so impressive that the cowboys won’t be able to resist.

And as for the kind of New York experience that I moved here to have, I’m back, and all I have to say is giddy up and hold on tight!

JLH